Sunday, January 23, 2011

Unrelated thoughts.

I had an exciting and long blog outlined in my mind to write, but as I typed it and thought about it I realized that it wasn't important and is probably mostly thoughts best kept to myself. Instead I'm just going to type a whole bunch of unrelated things that are on my mind right now.

I've just noticed recently that some friends are quite amazing people and others are not. Sometimes you have friends that you can go to and talk to about anything regardless of how pointless it is or how much attention you've given them lately and they'll still listen. Other times you have friends that blow you off when you want to have a serious conversation with them because they're too wrapped up in their own lives to care about your bad day/week/month/senior year. I know we all have both and I know for some people I've probably fallen in the latter category. I just hope I've not done it for friends that view me as someone close to them. I'm very grateful for friends that fit the former category though. We all should have more of those. A few days ago I got carded buying a 17+ video game, Mass Effect 2. I have to admit I actually felt pretty good about that. Now I know I don't look 16, but it reassures to me that I still don't look 25! :) I had a decent time at the Spectrum tonight. It was the first time in a while I've not been bored at a game. We beat NMSU by 10. I've had this urge to drink the last couple nights. Not to get drunk, just to relax and take the edge off life. Unfortunately I have no one to drink with and drinking alone isn't really my thing unless I've had a terrible day, which I've not had in quite some time, I've just had a long succession of blah days. I fixed my friends computer that was infected with a virus and realized that I'm actually a lot better with computers than I give myself credit for. My ex emails and texts me a lot lately, I don't understand it. What does she want? Why do I respond? I spent the night with a good friend from Sophomore/Junior years and we've really not talked since then other than brief "how was your day" text messages. It's kind of strange. I feel like maybe I put forth more effort, but she seems fine with having not talked since then, so I guess I'm fine with it too. I put my car for sale on KSL, but when people would call or text me about it. I just couldn't sell it. I kept having to tell people that I was sorry, but changed my mind and wanted to keep it. I took the ad down. I really like my Tiburon, even if it's not a fancy new car anymore, I just like it. In two days it would be my Grandma's 77th birthday. Pretty sure I'm experiencing a mild form of depression the last month or two. I wish I could break out of it, oh well it'll be spring soon enough and I'll be fine I'm sure. No, I'm not sad, being sad isn't depression, I just haven't really been able to find anything that makes me happy for a short while. Sometimes I have a dream where I wake up and I'm about 12 years old, but I still have all the knowledge and experiences I have as a 24 year old. It's strange, sometimes I wish it was real. My old best friend made a dig at the fact that I'm turning 25 and I'm still single. It really pissed me off, far more than I think he realizes. I have basically zero intention of attending his wedding now since I already had plans for the week he's getting married anyway. It is during Spring break and the WAC Tournament. Vegas doesn't judge me for being 25 and single, in fact it promotes it. Hell, he's only been to Logan to visit me twice in the last three years anyway and zero times in the last two years. Ah, look at me try to justify the fact that I feel bad about not intending to go. I think I'm going to sleep now.

Thursday, January 13, 2011

Logan is cold

So I live in Logan. I think anyone who has ever read my blog knows this. Logan is cold. Again, no surprise in that statement.

I was walking to class on Tuesday and had to walk all the way to the nether regions of campus (the east side) for my guitar class. Typically near campus in the mornings you get an easterly wind coming out of the canyon for reasons I don't feel like going into. Needless to say wind makes cold feel even colder. I got about to the Vet Science building before I quit being able to feel my face. I was thinking to myself, dang it is really cold today. Little did I know.. I figured it had to be in the teens. I got to class and looked at my phone, it read -3. No, my phone is not set to degrees C. That's in Fahrenheit and no, this isn't by any means the coldest day of the year. Just the coldest day since I've been back this semester.

Out of curiousity I decided to see what other temperatures around the world were at 9am on this day in some of the colder places that came to mind. Because I have somehow yet to have any homework yet this semester, I thought I would share this with you in my blog.

Moscow, Russia : 30
Cape Ross, Antarctica : 22
Salt Lake City, Utah : 12
Anchorage, Alaska : 12
Gustav Crater, Mars : 5
Logan, Utah : -3

Yes, Logan is colder than Mars. Now granted it might be summer in Antarctica and Moscow is certainly one of the more habitable places in Russia, (Vladivostok was -17 on this day) but still, are you kidding me? -3 is cold! Maybe I should start wearing more than a tshirt, jeans and a jacket. Then again, why start now? It's my last winter here and believe it or not, it's warming up! (Seriously, it hit -14 at one point in December.)

Why is it so damn cold here?! We're at 42 degrees latitude, so is Boston, which was sitting at a nice balmy 22* that day. While I don't feel like explaining that all technically it's because of the inversion atmospheric layer we get. Same reason it's always so smoggy in the Winter here. A big high pressure cell parks on top of Utah and just sits here cancelling out normal atmospheric convection and causing an inverse relationship from the normal, "it gets colder as you go higher" rule. So a valley like the one Logan sits in, which is surrounded by huge mountains, just never gets a chance for new air and since hot air rises and the valley is the bottom of the region, we get all the cold stuff. Oh mountains - despite the fact that I love you, you really suck sometimes.

Anyway, Logan is cold. I accept it. I just don't like when I quit feeling my face. I could wear one of those ski mask things, but then I just feel like I'm on my way to rob a bank. Meeting single girls in Logan is hard enough without looking like a freaky ass bank robber. Not to mention since there is no crime in this town I could totally see myself getting arrested on the grounds of attempted bank robbery, simply because I wanted to keep my face warm.

Oh in completely unrelated news. I met my childhood sports hero last night, Jeff Hornacek. He signed my 1997 Utah Jazz Western Conference Champions shirt. He came to Utah State to give a talk about his basketball career and playing with the Jazz during the Stockton/Malone era. I think it was supposed to be about overcoming adversity to achieve goals, but fortunately for all us Jazz fans it was basically just a talk about his basketball career (which for a 180 lb 2 guard does involve overcoming a lot of adversity). It was pretty awesome. See:

Friday, January 7, 2011

Third Eye Blind - Losing a Whole Year

(Losing a whole year)
(Losing a whole year)
I remember you and me used to spend
The whole goddamned day in bed
(Losing a whole year)
Hiding in your room we'd lay like dogs
And the phone would ring like a joke that's left unsaid
(Losing a whole year)
Rich daddy left you with a parachute
Your voice sounds like money and your face is cute
But your daddy left you with no love and
You touch everything with a velvet glove and
Now you want to try a life of sin
You want to be down with the down and in
Always copping my truths
I kind of get the feeling like I'm being used
And now I realize that you never heard
One goddamned word I ever said
(Losing a whole year)
(Losing a whole year)

I took your stuff and put it in the basement
When I found out what the smile on your face meant
I've seen you pop that check, babe
Craning your neck at my car wreck
And it always seems the juice used to flow
In the car, in the kitchen you were good to go
Now we're stuck with the tube
A sink full of dishes and some aqualube

I remember you and me used to spend
The whole goddamned day in bed

In bed

(Losing a whole year)
And not in defense then you're on the attack
When you start talking, I hear the Prozac
Convinced you've found your place
With the pierced queer teens in Cyberspace
When you were yourself it always tasted sweet
But sour turned into a routine deceit
Well this drama is a bore
And I don't wanna play no more
Go away! Go away!
(Losing a whole year)
I remember you and me used to spend the whole goddamned day in bed

In bed, In bed

I realize this shows my age, but I really love 3EB. They write such amazing powerful lyrics with driving music that makes me just feel amazing. I felt like posting so everyone else can enjoy Third Eye Blind too, haha. Plus, you know those times when you can rewrite a line or two from a song and feel like it came straight from your thoughts, that's always nice.

On a related thought I have Third Eye Blind's greatest hits CD and I'm turning 25 this month... What the hell happened to my growing up years? I'm a quarter of a century old and what do I have to show for it? Well, I could write a whole blog on that I suppose. I like my life - I feel like it's headed in a good direction. I might not make all the right choices, but as long as I'm the one who is making the choices, what is there to regret?